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Sep. 26th, 2006 09:56 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
called_lionessIt's easy to change into her nightgown, and it's easy to wash her face and brush and braid her hair.
And it's easy to get in bed with Caspian, but it's hard that it's so quiet as they do it, and it's hard that she isn't certain if she can put her arms around him, and it's hard enough that instead she rests with her back towards him as she murmurs, "I love you," and pretends she doesn't feel his hand ghost over her hair for a moment as he says the same back.
And it's very, very hard to close her eyes and let go.
But she's good at that, by now, too.
And it's easy to get in bed with Caspian, but it's hard that it's so quiet as they do it, and it's hard that she isn't certain if she can put her arms around him, and it's hard enough that instead she rests with her back towards him as she murmurs, "I love you," and pretends she doesn't feel his hand ghost over her hair for a moment as he says the same back.
And it's very, very hard to close her eyes and let go.
But she's good at that, by now, too.
