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She's brushed Corella more than is strictly necessary, and spoiled her yet again with an apple, and even taken her out for a bit.

(Lucy likes riding bareback, and she thinks Corella would hate a saddle. If you asked her why, she'd have no good answer for you, but she still thinks it's true.)

And now she's just laying on some hay, because it's rather nice in the stables, familiar, and it's not a bad place to be alone with your thoughts.

Date: 2006-02-01 02:41 am (UTC)
From: [personal profile] iustus_rex
It's not a bad place to be alone with your thoughts at all.

Sometimes it's nicer, even, when you can wear yourself out physically and keep yourself distracted enough that your thoughts manage to leave you alone, too.

So perhaps it's not such a surprise when Edmund, covered with straw and dust and horsehair, pauses in the opening of Corella's stall, blinking a little bit at her tiredly.

"... hullo, Lu," he says, starting to smile as well. "Have a good day?"

Date: 2006-02-01 02:49 am (UTC)
From: [personal profile] iustus_rex
"Strange?" he repeats, curiously, absently reaching in to pet Corella's nose as he watches his sister.

Date: 2006-02-01 02:51 am (UTC)
From: [personal profile] iustus_rex



"That is, I think," Edmund says slowly, "a sentence remarkable in its ability to fail to make any sort of sense at all.






"-- what?"

Date: 2006-02-01 02:56 am (UTC)
From: [personal profile] iustus_rex
Edmund's rather scared, and he wasn't even there!







(Probably this shows, rather.)




"... denim trousers. And a lacey shirt."

The milk... is ignored, for now.

Date: 2006-02-01 04:53 am (UTC)
From: [personal profile] iustus_rex
"Well, not yet!"

His voice doesn't crack.

Quite.

"I might have to when I go back inside," he points out, mildly flailing.

Possibly more at the thought of seeing her in denim trousers and a lacey blouse than at seeing her at all.

Possibly not.

Date: 2006-02-01 04:57 am (UTC)
From: [personal profile] iustus_rex
"That's... mainly because I've been trying very hard to avoid any place I might see her," he admits quietly, deflated.

Date: 2006-02-01 05:33 am (UTC)
From: [personal profile] iustus_rex
"Do you blame me?" he asks, softly, not quite looking at her.

Not could you blame me?, no, because he knows full well that she could, easily.

Date: 2006-02-01 05:46 am (UTC)
From: [personal profile] iustus_rex
The small smile on his face, as he nods and quietly joins her, is somewhere between rueful and almost wistful.

Date: 2006-02-01 05:52 am (UTC)
From: [personal profile] iustus_rex
He's quiet, for a moment, thinking.

It is best to be specific, after all, especially as she did say 'exactly'.



"For...

"For avoiding her, I suppose," he says softly, eventually. "You've been far braver than I, because you've seen her, spoken with her, at least three times now, I think. Assuming Adam wasn't talking of the future, at least. And I have very carefully avoided her instead."

Date: 2006-02-01 06:06 am (UTC)
From: [personal profile] iustus_rex
A little.

It hurts a little, that she thinks so, but to a large extent he finds he can't really blame her for doing so.

Edmund nods -- a little -- and absently presses a kiss to the top of her head, where she rests against his shoulder.

It hurts, but that doesn't mean it's a surprise, either.

Date: 2006-02-01 06:27 am (UTC)
From: [personal profile] iustus_rex
Is it fair, when Edmund didn't even know she was there, did not know that he had the choice of whether to avoid her or not, when Lucy was there alone?

Perhaps Fair doesn't matter.

Perhaps it never has.

"I'm sorry," he murmurs, echoing her. "I--"

Quiet, for a moment.

"I didn't even remember she had a sister," he says, eventually.

Date: 2006-02-01 06:38 am (UTC)
From: [personal profile] iustus_rex
Carefully, more hesitantly than it once might have been, he adjusts his arm so it's around her shoulders and he can hold her just the slightest bit closer.

"I don't know," he says quietly, and she is perhaps not the only one who sounds tired. "I... would like it if I could say, and know I spoke truth, that I am not that boy any longer. But I don't know how to change it, Lu, and I am trying, at least, and that is more than once it was. I don't know if it's enough," he admits, softly.

Date: 2006-02-01 06:43 am (UTC)
From: [personal profile] iustus_rex
"It isn't, particularly," he admits.

"But I'm here," he points out a moment later, shrugging uncomfortably. "It's... more than staying in the House of Arch except when I'm working, or trying to convince Kitty to cover without me."

Not that he thinks, in the slightest, that an attempt such as that, because of this, would be successful, no.

Date: 2006-02-01 06:48 am (UTC)
From: [personal profile] iustus_rex
"I'm sorry it's not more," he says softly, turning to look across into the other stalls. He can't see Rachât, not quite, but there's a shadow of a horse's shoulder that might be Ghost, at least.

Date: 2006-02-01 07:04 am (UTC)
From: [personal profile] iustus_rex
"What would you have me do?" he asks her, flatly.

If nothing else, at least it's not an apology.

Date: 2006-02-02 04:32 am (UTC)
From: [personal profile] iustus_rex
He stiffens, rather, and his voice is as stiff as he says "if you've advice as to what you think I should do, in specific rather than general terms, Lucy, I should be quite happy to hear it."

Date: 2006-02-02 04:35 am (UTC)
From: [personal profile] iustus_rex
"And do what?"

Date: 2006-02-02 04:44 am (UTC)
From: [personal profile] iustus_rex
She's right, of course.

And she's hardly the only one who's said the same, in whichever words.

But of course it's hardly pleasant to hear so many people say the same thing, and perhaps that's why -- when he'd already nearly decided he needed to do so anyway, at a time of his own choosing instead of waiting for Jadis to find him again, or waiting until such time as he came upon her by chance -- perhaps that's why all he does is pull away enough that he can bury his face in his hands for a long moment, before pushing them back through his hair and standing.

"I need to finish caring for Rachât," he says, dully. "I'll-- I'll find her. By the week-end."

It's strange, and no small amount painful, to find that while he does not blame Lucy for this he is angry with her. He's reasonably certain she doesn't deserve his anger, but that's not making it fade.

Date: 2006-02-02 04:52 am (UTC)
From: [personal profile] iustus_rex
He smiles a little anyway, if not very much.

"Goodnight, Lucy," he says, quietly, and absently pats Corella's shoulder, and turns and disappears in the direction of Rachât's stall.

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