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She's brushed Corella more than is strictly necessary, and spoiled her yet again with an apple, and even taken her out for a bit.
(Lucy likes riding bareback, and she thinks Corella would hate a saddle. If you asked her why, she'd have no good answer for you, but she still thinks it's true.)
And now she's just laying on some hay, because it's rather nice in the stables, familiar, and it's not a bad place to be alone with your thoughts.
(Lucy likes riding bareback, and she thinks Corella would hate a saddle. If you asked her why, she'd have no good answer for you, but she still thinks it's true.)
And now she's just laying on some hay, because it's rather nice in the stables, familiar, and it's not a bad place to be alone with your thoughts.
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Date: 2006-02-01 02:41 am (UTC)Sometimes it's nicer, even, when you can wear yourself out physically and keep yourself distracted enough that your thoughts manage to leave you alone, too.
So perhaps it's not such a surprise when Edmund, covered with straw and dust and horsehair, pauses in the opening of Corella's stall, blinking a little bit at her tiredly.
"... hullo, Lu," he says, starting to smile as well. "Have a good day?"
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Date: 2006-02-01 02:51 am (UTC)"That is, I think," Edmund says slowly, "a sentence remarkable in its ability to fail to make any sort of sense at all.
"-- what?"
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Date: 2006-02-01 02:53 am (UTC)Honestly?
It was kinda scary.
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Date: 2006-02-01 02:56 am (UTC)(Probably this shows, rather.)
"... denim trousers. And a lacey shirt."
The milk... is ignored, for now.
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Date: 2006-02-01 03:03 am (UTC)She looks a little pained.
"You didn't have to actually see her in it."
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Date: 2006-02-01 04:53 am (UTC)His voice doesn't crack.
Quite.
"I might have to when I go back inside," he points out, mildly flailing.
Possibly more at the thought of seeing her in denim trousers and a lacey blouse than at seeing her at all.
Possibly not.
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Date: 2006-02-01 05:33 am (UTC)Not could you blame me?, no, because he knows full well that she could, easily.
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Date: 2006-02-01 05:38 am (UTC)She sighs slowly, and then sits up a bit more.
"Sit with me?"
It's not a no, but it certain isn't a yes.
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Date: 2006-02-01 05:52 am (UTC)It is best to be specific, after all, especially as she did say 'exactly'.
"For...
"For avoiding her, I suppose," he says softly, eventually. "You've been far braver than I, because you've seen her, spoken with her, at least three times now, I think. Assuming Adam wasn't talking of the future, at least. And I have very carefully avoided her instead."
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Date: 2006-02-01 05:59 am (UTC)But that's not an answer, yet, either.
"A little," after a moment.
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Date: 2006-02-01 06:06 am (UTC)It hurts a little, that she thinks so, but to a large extent he finds he can't really blame her for doing so.
Edmund nods -- a little -- and absently presses a kiss to the top of her head, where she rests against his shoulder.
It hurts, but that doesn't mean it's a surprise, either.
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Date: 2006-02-01 06:08 am (UTC)But she does.
"She thought I was her sister." Softly, after a moment.
And Lucy had to just gape at her, alone, and so part of her, yes, blames Edmund for hiding.
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Date: 2006-02-01 06:27 am (UTC)Perhaps Fair doesn't matter.
Perhaps it never has.
"I'm sorry," he murmurs, echoing her. "I--"
Quiet, for a moment.
"I didn't even remember she had a sister," he says, eventually.
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Date: 2006-02-01 06:31 am (UTC)"Tatli." She smiles, a little, without anything behind it. "Her name was Tatli."
She rather wants to cry, and it's a moment where she shudders, a little, and then it's gone. He probably noticed, but she hopes he won't comment.
"When are you going to grow up and stop being the ten year old boy, Ed?" It's not angry. It's just tired.
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Date: 2006-02-01 06:38 am (UTC)"I don't know," he says quietly, and she is perhaps not the only one who sounds tired. "I... would like it if I could say, and know I spoke truth, that I am not that boy any longer. But I don't know how to change it, Lu, and I am trying, at least, and that is more than once it was. I don't know if it's enough," he admits, softly.
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Date: 2006-02-01 06:40 am (UTC)She doesn't know if it is either, but she doesn't pull away.
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Date: 2006-02-01 06:43 am (UTC)"But I'm here," he points out a moment later, shrugging uncomfortably. "It's... more than staying in the House of Arch except when I'm working, or trying to convince Kitty to cover without me."
Not that he thinks, in the slightest, that an attempt such as that, because of this, would be successful, no.
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Date: 2006-02-01 06:46 am (UTC)"It's something, I suppose."
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Date: 2006-02-01 07:04 am (UTC)If nothing else, at least it's not an apology.
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Date: 2006-02-02 04:44 am (UTC)And she's hardly the only one who's said the same, in whichever words.
But of course it's hardly pleasant to hear so many people say the same thing, and perhaps that's why -- when he'd already nearly decided he needed to do so anyway, at a time of his own choosing instead of waiting for Jadis to find him again, or waiting until such time as he came upon her by chance -- perhaps that's why all he does is pull away enough that he can bury his face in his hands for a long moment, before pushing them back through his hair and standing.
"I need to finish caring for Rachât," he says, dully. "I'll-- I'll find her. By the week-end."
It's strange, and no small amount painful, to find that while he does not blame Lucy for this he is angry with her. He's reasonably certain she doesn't deserve his anger, but that's not making it fade.
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Date: 2006-02-02 04:50 am (UTC)Except she's not.
She's annoyed and angry and tired, but she's not sorry.
So his name hangs there, because there's nothing to actually follow it up with.
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Date: 2006-02-02 04:52 am (UTC)"Goodnight, Lucy," he says, quietly, and absently pats Corella's shoulder, and turns and disappears in the direction of Rachât's stall.
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Date: 2006-02-02 04:55 am (UTC)"Goodnight, Edmund," softly, even if she doubts he can hear her.